chocolate in the morning,.

Sejak kecil saya selalu dekat dengan sosok si pemberi cokelat (bigbos). Bahkan dimana saya berada, disitu pun ia berada. Saking dekatnya kami berdua sampai-sampai saya banyak menemui kisah-kisah lucu, dan salah satu yang paling saya ingat adalah ketika saya sedang makan malam dengan seorang mantan saya. 

Ketika itu, saat sedang menikmati makan malam bersama sang mantan bernama Vakaz (zetan), datanglah adhy (teman SMA) lalu menyapa saya dan kami pun salaman. Sontak, saya pun terkejut saat dirinya menanyakan keberadaan papa. "Kesini sama siapa? Papanya mana?". Makin geram saat melihat sang pacar kala itu tersenyum sambil menutupi wajahnya dengan topi. "Kesini sama pacar. Papanya  di rumah". Mau tak mau saya harus menjawab pertanyaan Adhy, walau sebenarnya dalam hati saya ingin meremuk-remukan tubuh kurusnya.

Begitu banyak cerita tentang papa dalam hidup saya yang membuat saya begitu mencintainya. I am not a romantic girl, bahkan saat papa menemui hari ulang tahunnya pun saya enggan mengatakan ini : I Love You, Papa. Namun itu tak berarti saya tak ingin papa tahu kalau saya mencintainya, saya cuma ingin bilang I love you padanya dengan cara yang berbeda.

Selama liburan yang dapat dibilang amat panjang ini, saya manfaatkan untuk menunjukan cinta pada papa dengan cara saya. Diam dirumah manjadi penjaga warnet merangkap tukang taman; peternak bebek, ayam, anjing en ikan; cleaning service; juru masak; dan tukang parkir. Membantu papa adalah suatu bentuk tindakan nyata kalau saya begitu mencintainya.

Dan inilah upah atas semua itu ..................

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Meski hanya satu namun sangat berarti. Mengetahui bahwa kerja keras dan cinta saya yang tulus dihargai papa membuat saya tidak melihat jumlah cokelat tersebut, namun penghargaan itulah yang saya lihat. Dan itu menyenangkan, sungguh menyenangkan,. ^_^  

I Love You, Papa :* !!

1st award

Wuahhh,, lama tak membuka blog ini,, saat muncul kembali tau-tau saya dapat award dari  te'o arysthaa =="

Ehemmm.... Diiawal saya sempat kebingungan dan jujur tak tahu apa yang harus saya lakukan untuk merespon award ini, untung saja saya diberi sedikit pencerahan dari seseorang yang sejak pertama kali saya membuat blog dia selalu setia memberi solusi kala saya menemui masalah dalam mengelolah blog ini. Dia itu sendiri tak lain adalah sang pemberi award kali ini. ^_^

Langsung saja  .....

The rules are :

• Tiap orang yang ditandai harus menulis 11 hal mengenai dirinya sendiri,
• Jawab pertanyaan yang diajukan oleh orang yang menandai,
• Bikin 11 pertanyaan baru untuk orang yang ingin ditandai,
• Tentukan 11 orang untuk dapat award ini dan link-kan mereka ke post-mu,
• Pergi ke halaman blog mereka dan beritahu bahwa mereka mendapat award ini, 
• Tidak bisa menandai kembali.

These are the 11 things about me :

1. A follower of Jesus Christ,
2. HAPPY. Itulah nama saya, yang memiliki kepanjangan HArta Pusaka Punyaan Yesus. Indah bukan?? :-)
3. Identik dengan senyuman dan tawa (sesuai nama),
4. Seorang pecinta Cokelat dan Ice cream,
5. Amat cerewet namun terkadang memilih diam disaat merasa tidak perlu bicara (dibaca: peduli dengan perasaan orang lain),
6. Mengidolakan salah satu tokoh disney yakni Mickey Mouse,
7. Tak bisa kemana-mana tanpa tas dan aksesoris tangan,
8. Sedang mencintai seseorang yang begitu berarti dalam hidup saya sejak kurang lebih 1 tahun 7 bulan silam,
9. Selalu setia menanti tanggal 18 setiap bulannya, 
10. Selalu melakukan segala hal bersama teman setia saya bernama "Handphone" dan
11. Bukan tipe manusia tertib

The answer of arysthaa's questions :

1. Punya nama tengah? Apa? Ya. Rosita.
2. Henpon yang sekarang kamu pake itu henpon keberapa? Ke delapan
3. Pernah loncat kelas? Tidak pernah
4. Pas lagi ngetik ini, jam berapa di situ?11:26
5. Nasi goreng langgananmu di mana? TDM
6. Kamu ultah bulan apa? Januari
7. Apa alat musik yang bisa kamu mainkan? Keyboard
8. SMS paling atas di-inboxmu sekarang dari siapa? ex_bf vakaz
9. Film yang kamu nonton sebelum nge-post tulisan ini apa? Tidak ada.
10.  Perpustakaan atau mall? Kenapa? Tidak keduanya. Lagi sibuk menghabiskan waktu di warnet,. hehehe :DD 
11. Punya kenangan seru dengan dompet? Apa itu? Punya. Waktu ditilang di bundaran PU Liliba, dan malangnya saya lupa bawa dompet yang adalah tempat dimana SIM dan STNK saya disimpan. :D

Those who I'm tagging :

1. keeprock
2. zetan
3. ichad
4. fefen
5. william
6. widyawirawan
7. batubadaon
8. kaka
9. carla
10. lacunata
11. trisusanti

Then, my Questions are :

1. Apa arti dari nama kamu?
2. Suka olahraga? Jika ya, sebutkan! Berikan alasan!
3. Gambarkan IBU bagi kamu dalam 1 kata!
4. Punya benda kesayangan? sebutkan!
5. Kamu paling sering manghabiskan waktu dimana?
6. Suka Ice cream? Apa Ice cream favorit mu?
7. Jika kamu adalah buah, kamu ingin menjadi buah apa? kenapa?
8. Apa kenangan yang tak pernah bisa kamu lupakan?
9. Apa yang kamu lakukan ketika menemui kegagalan?
10. Gambar apa yang kamu gunakan sebagai wallpaper handphone mu saat ini?
11. Sebutkan postingan mana yang paling kamu sukai dari blog saya! ahahaha, kenapa?

aku ingin .....

Aku ingin seperti WAKTU !
yang begitu egois padamu
yang takkan menunggumu sedetik pun,.
yang akan berlalu, berlalu dan terus berlalu..

(</3 F)

Do you have a heart to love God ?

“For the eyes of the Lord run to and fro throughout the whole earth to show Himself strong in behalf of those whose hearts are blameless toward Him;” (2 Chronicles 16:9 AMP).

Are you looking for God to move in your life today? The Bible says that God is actually looking to show Himself strong in the Earth. He is looking for those who have a blameless heart toward Him.

When you open your heart to Jesus, and ask Him to forgive you and cleanse you by His blood, He gives you a blameless heart—then you are the person the Lord is looking to work through! When you understand the fact that God longs to work in your life, your faith will increase. Your hope will increase. And God’s work in your life will increase! Have confidence in this scripture today. Begin to thank God for giving you a clean and blameless heart. Thank Him for choosing to work in you.

As you thank and praise Him, expect Him to act! Expect to see Him move mightily on your behalf in every area of your life!

Hal kecil itu ..

Ada apa dengan gambar diatas? Menarik kah? Tentu tidak. 

"Lantas mengapa di-post, happy?", tanyaku pada  seseorang bernama happy yang tak lain adalah diriku sendiri (bego). 

Well,, begini ceritanya......

Tepat pukul 23:15 wita, si Dia tiba di rumah yang adalah tempat ayah dan aku membuka usaha warnet. Seperti biasa, dia hendak nge-net. Namun, ada yang berbeda. Ada yang tidak seperti biasanya. Ya, dia tidak se-garink biasanya. Meski tak asyik ataupun tak mampu menggugah senyum ku, dia tetap saja berbasa-basi (walau tak ku pedulikan) sesaat setelah memasuki ruang utama warnet, hingga akhirnya dia memilih client room nomor empat untuk hal yang menjadi tujuan utamanya datang ke sini (Internetan). 

Sekitar dua puluh menit berlalu, hati ku tergerak untuk mengecek Billing, namun tak ku temukan username-nya (yang sering dipakai) disana. Tak sampai hitungan menit, mataku tertambat pada station 4 dimana kata "Felo" dipakai sebagai username si pengunjung. Yang ada dalam otakku saat itu yakni si Felo adalah dia, dan saat itu pula ku teringat kata felopy. Tepat sekali, malam ini dia berbeda. Pertama, dia bukan seseorang yang gemar berbasa-basi. Dia lebih memilih diam dan asyik dengan dunianya sendiri tanpa mempedulikan apakah orang-orang disekitarnya menyukainya atau tidak. Dan yang kedua adalah username yang dia pakai. Biasanya dia menggunakan kata po**. Tapi malam ini, benar-benar beda bukan ??

Pertanyaan berikutnya. 

"Lantas apa postingan ini dimuat hanya untuk menceritakan hal omong kosong tentang perubahan yang ditunjukan si dia malam ini?" 

Hahahaha. Mugkin saja IYA. Kau tahu? Aku memang tak tergugah untuk tersenyum saat mendengar celotehnya, namun diluar kesadaranku, aku tersenyum saat mataku menjamah kata felo yang terpampang manis di billing warnet. Ya, Hal kecil itu membuat mataku dapat berbinar ceria sembari tersenyum, dan itu luar biasa. 

Kembali ke gambar sekaligus menjawab pertanyaan awal, gambar itu memang sama sekali tak menarik bagi siapapun (kecuali aku). Karena menarik untuk ku (si bego) maka, ku muat di sini. wkwk //  -.-

Don't be GALAU !!!

Have you ever heard a word is used to show that you’re in trouble such as Galau (or worried in English)? Well, I think the word is very common for us because it has become a trend now, especially among the young people. I have a short illustration about worried vs. Calm.

There were two Swiss tourists who climb a mountain. When they returned, they were forced to board a car rags. The car runs faltering because of its old machine.

Along the way, the first traveler was busy worrying about the condition of the car. He choked on a concern that the car broke down in the middle of the road. He worried that the gas runs out and there was no gas station there.

Meanwhile, the second traveler seemed to take it easy. He was enjoying the beautiful hills scenery in that brown country. The hills were decorated with snow-white. Several times, he was capturing the beauties of it, with his pocket camera.

Finally, after an hour the car arrived at its destination. "How come you have time to take the landscape picture? Are you not worried? ", asked the first traveler.

"What's to worry? If there is a problem, there would be a way out. I like the last trip. it's the beautiful view, isn't it?" The second traveler was asked back.

The story had helped us to understand how often Galau or worried itself makes us lose a lot of valuable things. Worse, it often concerns not proved as bad as we worry about or even not at all proven.

“Worries will not add every inch of our age as long as we live.” While many people live in worries and anxious about what is yet to happen. People are often scared and didn't know what he/she must to fear. Finally, people like this are not going to enjoy life. The joys of living only belong to those who are able to enjoy their life with great gratitude.

Do you remember one of Glenn fredly’s songs titled SALAM BAGI SAHABAT that had been one of Denias Movie soundtracks? That’s your life. Your life is beautiful if you know which way is right.

Time of life rotates only once. There are minutes that must be passed by Sweet thing; and there are also minutes to go through with the Bitter thing.

Live every second of our life with faith and love for the Lord so that, we become wiser in living this life. ^___^

Mom

I have a mom who read to me, fed me, waited up for me, smiled at me, talked to me, prayed for me, laughed with me (at me sometimes), cried for me, loved me.

LUCKY ME!

Frustrated ? ( I was)

* Should I warn you that this would be a rather negative and violent post and it is not who I am usually? This is exactly why I am trying to encrypt it, of course it doesn’t work the way I wanted to. If you do not want to know the other “dark” me, please just leave, otherwise you might find yourself disappointed at me, which I would never want it to happen on me. *

Did I mention before, I really really hate it when people gave me reactions such as “oo”, “oh”, “ya”, “hmm”, or any sorts of such short reactions during conversation. If such reaction is follows by something (a sentence or a question), then it is not so bad, at least I still felt that I am wanted and I am able to continue the conversation. When such short reactions are given, more often than not, I felt that I am unwanted by the person whom I am having conversation with.

If I am not wanted, please just let me know. Any excuses are fine, you could even tell me that you are busy and I will just leave you alone. Do you know that it is really tiring for trying and trying and trying non-stop? It is not only tiring; in fact it is also annoying and frustrating.

dont know what title should I put

Actually never plan to tell this to everyone here..
I AM CLUELESS!!!


I think, I NEED to kill my brain cells again! Arrrrrggggggghhh !

keep it or delete it?

These are the opening lines. I'm having trouble deciding. 

Feel free to be honest.

I just wanna batareak "Arrrrrrrrgggggggggghhh !!!"

Memimpikan si tekotek ^.^

M..... Oh M.. !!

ahaha xD Tahu tidak? Saking sering memikirkan hal yang satu ini, akhirnya ia terbawa ikut menyertai tidur saya (*tidak hanya sekali). 

Ya,, Diakui itu mimpi yang indah. Mimpi indah yang membuat saya tersenyum-senyum sendiri saat tertidur (menurut mama_si pengamat tidur saya_). 

Toenkzzz... Iseng-iseng saya membuka blog teman untuk mencari tahu arti dari si M tekotek ^.^ ,, 

dan demikianlah hasilnya :

"Si M adalah simbol dari sebuah perjalanan. Jika bermimpi mendapatkan si M adalah pertanda baik kalau kita akan mendapatkan kesuksesan yang akan datang karena usaha kita sendiri."

Bicara soal Si M,,, hohoho :O SAYA MASIH MENANTI MU.  Mari menabung ! ^__^

Lesson Plan Using Total Physical Response Method

• Cultural Focus: Knowledge of human body parts.
•  Skill: Listening and speaking.
•  Time required: 40-45 minutes
•  Materials: Index card, poster of drawing of a person with body parts labeled.
•  Classroom Procedure: 
  
  
  1.       Greeting, checking for the roll.
  2.       Pretest, review
  3.       Introduce vocabulary by standing and pointing to each body part, saying “My ______.”  Students stand, touch their body part and repeat.
  4.       Practice by saying a body part and letting students identify and touch the body part.
  5.       Share to students the label of body parts. 
  6.       Students write the names of the body parts on an index card.
  7.      Teacher calls out a body part and students find the matching word card until all cards are used.  Next, call out a body part and students find matching the picture card until all cards are used.
  8.    Pair students to play “Concentration” using the picture cards.
  9.       As a class, list and classify body parts into singular and plural using:
                  “I have one __________.” or “I have two________.”
  10.   Use this vocabulary to practice: My __________ hurt(s).
  11.   Students identify body parts using Total Physical Response, ex. “Touch your toes.”
  12.   Students match body part pictures and words.
  13.   Drawing  the conclusion, Giving homework.
  
  
  
  

  

  
  

  

  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
        

              

Be still

“Be still and know that I am God!” is the first part of Psalm 46:10. Here, the word 'still' comes from a Hebrew word meaning to “let go” or “release.” Meaning, we need to come to a place where we are willing to submit ourselves to God and acknowledge that He is in sovereign control.

But why do I write about this today? Because lately there have been so much going on in my life, that it's so hard to keep still. In fact just yesterday, so many things happened that really made me anxious about what's going to happen next. It made me wonder about what I should do--if there's anything that I could do, when lately I have been praying, learning and building my faith and trust in the Lord. In fact I was even excited about what He will do in my life. But in the things that happened yesterday, I wanted to ask God, "Lord, what the heck are you doing?! I put my faith in you and trusted you and this is what you do?!"

Suddenly out of nowhere God spoke to me and said, "BE STILL AND KNOW THAT I AM GOD!!!". And yes, in exclamation point. I was caught off guard and it made me pause for a moment. I said that I've decided to put my faith in God and trust Him. But like most people, when what happens is something that is not in line with what we think SHOULD happen or if God does something different than what we initially imagined, we start to panic. And that's what happened to me. I started to panic because what God did was different from what I thought he should have done. And God rebuked me. Where did my faith go????
 

When we realize that we are truly incapable of controlling life, we can surrender our will to God’s will. For me, it was a matter of really trusting Him, and putting my faith in Him, even at times when everything is so unclear that we can't see how things are going to work out--ESPECIALLY when we have no idea how things are going to work out. After all, He is our Creator, He knows everything and He has a perfect plan for us when we let Him orchestrate it.

I don't see the big picture, but God does. I don't see what lies ahead, but God does. I don't know what He knows but I know that He knows what He is doing.



I will be still and know that He is indeed God.

Facing the reality and pursuing my dreams.

Being a budding young girl who is almost entering the world to be in potential, I had been dreaming about dreams that would take me far and wide. But on the back of my head there has always been a voice saying to me that I will never be able to reach it. I felt that my faith was shaking not knowing where to go and what to do. Every thing seemed to me as strange and lost with no direction. Considering the possibility of living, life is too short and it needs some value. So I wanted to keep on trying and to move keeping my head held high. A person looking from a glance will probably say that life is simple and normal. But as a person living on my own I would never say that. Life is made out of mountains and battles. One after the other you are supposed to move the mountains and win the battles. But there may be times when you loose and you go all like, why-is-this-only-happening-to-me-always. But sooner or later I realized that it doesn’t matter how fast you move and it doesn’t matter what you will have to expect on the other side of the mountain but it’s all about the climb. This reminds me about a fact which my father used to say to me that, there might always be people who will want to stamp you down and make you feel distressing but you should never give up and you should keep playing the game. That was the one motivation which I used to face my struggles and to take my chances which would have knocked me down on some instance. In this twenty first century we are forced to live in a fast driving competitive world that do not allow us to sit back and think about what we really want ourselves to do. As a young adult I have felt a lot of times that I’m missing the extraordinaire of life. I may not know exactly where certain things would lead onto but I know without a shadow of a doubt that those will be the moments which I’m going to remember the most. And once again I realized that I got to keep going. I had to be strong and I couldn’t let the evil outsources stop me from pursuing my dreams and living life to the fullest. Time creates everything. Life turns around. Every one has a light that shines bright on their destiny and I won’t be afraid to follow every where my light takes me. It doesn’t matter what people say and it doesn’t matter how long it will take for things to happen. I’m going to believe in myself, follow my heart and fly high. Because life’s a climb but the view is great.

Menanti si "M"

Sebenarnya belum pasti, tapi aku tak peduli. Aku tetap ingin menunggu hingga dia datang, entah itu besok, minggu depan, bulan depan maupun kapan pun itu.

*Terus berharap ^__^ (realisasinya).

The essence of real life

Why are some people grateful and others not? Is it because some people have had better experiences in life than others? If so, then why do so many people who have been through so much seem to have such thankful hearts; while others who have experienced a much easier life seem so ungrateful for it? 

 “When I’ll have a car? If only I have a car is not difficult if I want to go anywhere, why do we like the decrepit shack homes while our neighbors have the facilities and stately home?” 

That is piece of a sentence that either consciously or not, always comes out of our lips. We have always and always feel less alone, that's human nature to always be felt less by the gift that is given by God , and the lack of gratitude is to make the day-to-day lived far from being happy. Always restless, and people who behave thus less able to enjoy life. He was tormented by desires that are far from reality. An overwhelming desire not followed by hard work and smart, and too far from prayer.

           Age of a man is not long, very rare among us that in the given age until they reach the age allotted 80's or even 90's. On average we are only up to age 60's or less. Does that mean that short of age should be filled with things that are fun less?

We understand very much, how to please ourselves. How beautiful the days when we went through rations to replenish our life is filled with be grateful for all the gifts given by God. So that all the blessings that will always surround our lives.

How many people who think we are living happily with wallowing in wealth, the opposite of life, far from being restless and unhappy, one of the cause of it all is the lack of gratitude for the gift that is given to him. Because of that grateful for the favors of God is our duty. However, one must understand how to reflect our gratitude properly. Many of which reflect a sense of gratitude in a way contrary to the principles of gratitude itself, for example, there is a manifest gratitude by drunkenness, orgies, go where sinners, to forget their duty to another.

Try running the command of His earnest and sincere, that's a real gratitude. For that, go for the happiness and blessings with always be grateful to live with HIM, so that we can be classified as a grateful servant of Him. Truly, that's the essence of real life where we can appreciate our lives, always grateful for what we get.

Could it be that the way each of us is raised gives us our eventual perception of life and gratitude? Is our outlook based on the religious training we received at an early age? Did that help us develop an even stronger sense of gratitude to God and to others as we matured?

Maybe it's a combination of life experiences and events, that none of us will really know why we feel as we do when it comes to gratitude. Maybe it doesn't matter. In the end, ultimately what counts is that we either have developed a grateful heart and a thankful spirit or we have not.

As we approach the season of giving thanks and look back over our life, is there sufficient reason for us to be grateful? Do we sense that all of what we hold nearest and dearest truly has been given to us by God? Can it be that the steady reminders in Scriptures to be thankful also are reminders that encourage us to be grateful?

“If the only prayer you say in your life is ‘thank you,’ that would suffice.” Gratitude means thankfulness, counting your blessings, noticing simple pleasures, and acknowledging everything that you receive. It means learning to live your life as if everything were a miracle, and being aware on a continuous basis of how much you’ve been given. Gratitude shifts your focus from what your life lacks to the abundance that is already present. In addition, behavioral and psychological research has shown the surprising life improvements that can stem from the practice of gratitude. Giving thanks makes people happier and more resilient, it strengthens relationships, it improves health, and it reduces stress.

If we truly are thankful, then the spirit with which we live our lives will proclaim to God, and to the world, how grateful we are for all we have been blessed with in life. However little or however much that may be, let us each be thankful!

Rain means no class

Berbeda dengan hari kemarin, pagi ini saya terbangun karena sang telinga mendengar sesuatu yang menggugah rasa ingin tahu (tepatnya saya tahu, bahkan sangat mengenal suara itu namun saya hanya ingin memastikan saja). Mata pun tak mau kalah dengan segera memandang ke arah jendela sembari kaki ikut melangkah mendekati. Seusai tangan bergerak membuka gorden, mata pun memandang keluar lalu otak bekerja super duper cepat memberi info bahwa itu adalah hujan (ya,, as I guess).

Cihuuuuuuuuiii,, artinya apa pemirsa? Artinya saya bisa mengklaim bahwa kelas Introduction To Linguistic pagi ini BATAL (sambil berharap itu benar adanya | setidaknya sang dosen takut hujan dapat mengembalikan bentuk rambutnya yang baru selesai dicatok ke bentuk semula). Dan akhirnya, saya pun memilih untuk kembali membuang diri ke atas ranjang (tidur lagi) sambil berharap tak ada pesan singkat menyusul  yang berisi "cepat dtg, dosen su masuk" seperti biasanya dari nona Diana Rade Kale yang adalah ketua tingkat saya . Semoga saja !!!!

*Inilah salah satu contoh mahasiswi teladan. xoxoxoxo o(≧o≦)o !

Love always wins

Kenapa kita selalu begini? Masih saja terbelenggu dalam sikap kekanakan bahkan hingga hampir satu tahun lima bulan usia hubungan ini. Usia kita pun sudah 20 tahun, harusnya kita bisa bersikap lebih dewasa (bersikap sesuai usia). Satu tahun lebih itu pun bukanlah waktu yang singkat, banyak hal berlalu dan meninggalkan begitu banyak cerita. Manis maupun pahit, baik ataupun buruk. Begitu banyak hal telah ku pelajari darimu, begitupun sebaliknya yang membuat kita sangat mengenal masing-masing pribadi, NAMUN mengapa kita masih seperti ini? M-E-N-G-A-P-A? Apa karena aku terlalu nakal seperti katamu? ataukah karena cemburu dan manja mu yang sangat berlebihan menurutku? ataukah lagi karena ego kita yang tinggi seperti kata mereka (keluarga dan sahabat)?

Apapun alasannya dan apapun yang kita hadapi saat ini, aku percaya ini adalah proses. Ini adalah batu loncatan yang membawa kita bertumbuh hingga akhirnya menjadi dewasa seperti yang kita harapkan bersama. Apapun sikap dan karakter kita saat ini, ku yakin jauh dari itu semua kita masing-masing tahu bahwa kita saling mencintai. Siapapun mereka, tak ada yang mampu menggantikan mu. Percaya padaku, dan marilah kita tumbuh bersama.

Kau menunggu, aku pun demikian, seraya percaya Tuhan selalu mendengar doamu dan doaku tentang mimpi, cita-cita dan cinta kita. Hingga akhirnya 2018 itu datang dan menjadi bukti betapa cinta itu begitu luar biasa dan hebat serta mampu mengalahkan apapun termasuk ego, kekanakan, cemburu maupun mereka yang lain.

Missing Him

"b nd akan lepas u apapun yang terjadi" (ku tak akan melepasmu apapun yang terjadi), demikian sms itu dikirimnya seraya mengakhiri pertengkaran antara aku dan dia malam itu (04/05.23:42:30).Dan setelah saat itu, tak ada kabar lagi darinya hingga kini. T.T

I miss the smiles. I miss the laughs. I miss the hugs. I miss the flirting. I miss talking everyday. I miss saying I miss you every chance we got. I do miss you. </3

Untuk Ferdy// ( mengertilah!)

Aku sendiri tidak sadar, sampai akhirnya lamunanku tentang kehidupanku, tentang sakitku, dan tentang kekasihku yang mulai berpaling. Ini semua masih bias, aku senang melihat dia bahagia, tapi aku sedih karena tak ada lagi waktu untukku. Mengertikah engkau? 

*Semoga…

The meaning of life.

Pagi yang CANTIK. Itulah yang bisa saya gambarkan tentang pagi ini. Saya dibangunkan oleh nada dering handphone saya. Rasa kesal dan amarah saya sempat hampir meledak mengingat saya baru tertidur kurang dari dua jam yang lalu. Namun bak api yang dipadamkan dengan air sekian liter banyaknya, mood saya pun berubah saat melihat nama si penelepon. Tanpa membuang banyak waktu saya langsung menerima telepon kemudian membuka percakapan dengan kata "hallo". 

Cukup lama kami berbincang mengenai hari-hari saya  selama dia menghilang. Dan pada bagian berikutnya kamipun berbicara mengenai Hidup. Hal yang paling saya sukai adalah ini (percakapan hangat dengannya di pagi hari // *pagi= waktu dimana dia belum terlalu disibukkan dengan aktivitasnya yang sangat padat sepanjang hari dan waktu dimana otaknya masih belum dijamah hal-hal yang membuatnya pusing).

Mainly,  topik yang kami bahas pagi ini adalah Arti Hidup. Dia bertanya pada saya Apa itu hidup? lantas saya  menjawabnya hidup itu adalah sebuah permainan yang selalu bisa berubah-rubah suatu saat. Karena itu hidup jangan lah disia-siakan dan kemudian saya pun balik bertanya apa arti hidup menurutnya. "Hidup adalah suatu keindahan yang diberikan oleh Tuhan, karena itu janganlah mempermainkan kehidupan ini", jawabnya.

Sayangnya waktu tak cukup bersahabat pagi ini. Dia harus segera bersiap untuk kesibukannya di kantor begitupun saya harus bersiap diri untuk kesibukan saya tentunya di kampus dan warnet. ^_^ Sebelum mengakhiri percakapan yang terbilang cukup lama (30-an menit) itu, dia masih sempat menyinggung tentang arti hidup itu lagi.

Ibarat fruits candy, kehidupan pun juga punya banyak rasa, dan rasa-rasa itu adalah guru terbaik untuk terus hidup dan terus merasakan semua yang ada. Permen jangan hanya dihisap saja namun harus dikunyah kemudian ditelan. Demikian hidup bukan untuk di renungkan  tapi terus di jalani apapun itu. 

Menutup hari ini

Hari ini warnet sepi lebih awal dari hari-hari sebelumnya. Seseorang dari client 12 bernama Ady (pengunjung terakhir) mengakhiri pekerjaan saya hari ini tepat pukul 23:47 WITA. Puji Tuhan, walau berakhir lebih awal dari biasanya, namun pemasukannya benar-benar memuaskan.

 "Thank you God for blessing my life with some truly amazing and beautiful things (college, business, papa, mama, him, friends and especially my bed used by me right now).  I am so very blessed! Give me Your morning with beautiful sunshine and the blast of breath. Let me work again and make me better than today, Amen."

be like a star

 

This posted on my Facebook exactly on a few minute after a man from my past sent this to me via SMS. I'm so glad because finally he comes up again, I only hope that after this he will always be there and never disappear again.

And ya,, I do want to be his meteorite that always glowing and shining like a star, also can always bring luck for everybody who meet me. Just hope you ( him and the reader) too. ^_^

Life Is A Gift

One of my friend sent this one to my e-mail , yesterday.

There was a blind girl who hated herself just because she was blind. She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He was always there for her. She said that if she could only see the world, she would marry her boyfriend.
One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her and then she could see everything, including her boyfriend. Her boyfriend asked her, “now that you can see the world, will you marry me?”
The girl was shocked when she saw that her boyfriend was blind too, and refused to marry him. Her boyfriend walked away in tears, and later wrote a letter to her saying:
“Just take care of my eyes dear.”

                                                                                                                                                                  


Well, i think this is how human brain changes when the status changed. Only few remember what life was before, and who’s always been there even in the most painful situations.
 Life Is A Gift
Today before you think of saying an unkind word–
think of someone who can’t speak.
Before you complain about the taste of your food–
think of someone who has nothing to eat.
Before you complain about your husband or wife–
think of someone who is crying out to God for a companion.
Today before you complain about life–
think of someone who went too early to heaven.
Before you complain about your children–
think of someone who desires children but they’re barren.
Before you argue about your dirty house, someone didn’t clean or sweep–
think of the people who are living in the streets.
Before whining about the distance you drive–
think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet.
And when you are tired and complain about your job–
think of the unemployed, the disabled and those who wished they had your job.
But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another–
remember that not one of us are without sin and we all answer to one maker.
And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down–
put a smile on your face and thank God you’re alive and still around.

Life is a gift – Live it, Enjoy it, Celebrate it, and Fulfill it. ^_^

Ketakutan

Mereka itu hebat, mereka pun bahagia, serta punya orang-orang setia disamping mereka. Tertawa lepas, tanpa menggendong beban (perasaan takut). Well, hidup mereka SEMPURNA.
Dan  SAYA ???
Saya takut akan hari esok, saya sangat takut akan banyak hal, terlebih saya takut perlahan mereka (yang saya cintai) mulai berhenti tersenyum.

About mom @ my facebook on january until march, 2012

January

February

Maret

Read this one not only makes me smile but also it makes me realize how big her love to me en yeahhh,, I do love you too, MOM :*

Ceremony Band (old one)

Here is where i began to join a group band as the Keyboardist. A band named Ceremony Band which established on November 2007. It's a fucking crazy band with the strange members. There were many events we joined and all those were really meaningful for me. All the joy, nervous, happiness, sadness, madness, disappointment, touchiness, concern, friendship, togetherness and many more i got here. I learn many things here also. This band  has 6 members and i really love the five other. They are ..

1st is Jadmiko Gino Permadi (some people call him Miko, other call him Gino and almost people called him Buyung) lol ! He was the Vocalist, the crazy one also. I didn't know why but in every event we followed, he always forgot some lyrics of the song that we perform, but yeah he was the icon of our group because he was really entertain. 

2nd is Alif Abdul Robi Wahyudi (Aliph). He was a great Drummer. 

3rd is Harry Rudiyanto Manukoa (Harry). He has best skill in playing guitar. ya,, He was the Guitarist (lead). 

4th is Jason Christofel Ngun (Jason/Acond). He was the Guitarist (Rhythm).

and the 5th or the last is Heppy Victor Runesi (Heppy). He was the Bassis.

Actually, there are many things about this band I wanna share here, but I have to back home because a lot of things are still waiting for me there. So, finally I just wanna say that I love them, the autism and truly i miss all the memories we ever had.

♥ Love Ceremony Band ♥

someone else

Well,. long time I did not post here.

I'm sorry my dear blog, i didn't forget you, i just too busy with all my activities nowadays,. ahahaha xDD

One thing i wanna share here is about my feeling to someone,. He is the one that colored my life since November 11th, 2011 (11.11.11) until now. He is a kind of wonderful boy for me but everything changes when I opened en read a blog of someone else in his past. it sucks en hurts. Turns out I've been hard to love someone who has someone else who loved him more sincerely than I do.

Happy Djahimo

February 23 via Facebook for Every Phone

Cinta itu seperti coklat, tapi gak berarti cinta selalu manis. . Kan ada juga rasa coklat yang pahit. . ^__^

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  This was a message he sent me on February 23rd, 2012 that turned out was a message also sent by someone else to him. Well, just forget about the text, actually i don't really know how long the girl have that feeling to him, but i know right it more than what i do. 

  The question is "What should i do next?" it's simply. I know I can't forget him, but I'll try to avoid him for a while until this feeling disappeared from my brain and heart. 

  Good bye "R.O"    

everything would be fine

Sesulit apapun masalah yang ku hadapi„ aku selalu mengingat ini ….
“SEMUA AKAN BAIK-BAIK SAJA, PEO”
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