Untuk Ferdy// ( mengertilah!)

Aku sendiri tidak sadar, sampai akhirnya lamunanku tentang kehidupanku, tentang sakitku, dan tentang kekasihku yang mulai berpaling. Ini semua masih bias, aku senang melihat dia bahagia, tapi aku sedih karena tak ada lagi waktu untukku. Mengertikah engkau? 

*Semoga…

The meaning of life.

Pagi yang CANTIK. Itulah yang bisa saya gambarkan tentang pagi ini. Saya dibangunkan oleh nada dering handphone saya. Rasa kesal dan amarah saya sempat hampir meledak mengingat saya baru tertidur kurang dari dua jam yang lalu. Namun bak api yang dipadamkan dengan air sekian liter banyaknya, mood saya pun berubah saat melihat nama si penelepon. Tanpa membuang banyak waktu saya langsung menerima telepon kemudian membuka percakapan dengan kata "hallo". 

Cukup lama kami berbincang mengenai hari-hari saya  selama dia menghilang. Dan pada bagian berikutnya kamipun berbicara mengenai Hidup. Hal yang paling saya sukai adalah ini (percakapan hangat dengannya di pagi hari // *pagi= waktu dimana dia belum terlalu disibukkan dengan aktivitasnya yang sangat padat sepanjang hari dan waktu dimana otaknya masih belum dijamah hal-hal yang membuatnya pusing).

Mainly,  topik yang kami bahas pagi ini adalah Arti Hidup. Dia bertanya pada saya Apa itu hidup? lantas saya  menjawabnya hidup itu adalah sebuah permainan yang selalu bisa berubah-rubah suatu saat. Karena itu hidup jangan lah disia-siakan dan kemudian saya pun balik bertanya apa arti hidup menurutnya. "Hidup adalah suatu keindahan yang diberikan oleh Tuhan, karena itu janganlah mempermainkan kehidupan ini", jawabnya.

Sayangnya waktu tak cukup bersahabat pagi ini. Dia harus segera bersiap untuk kesibukannya di kantor begitupun saya harus bersiap diri untuk kesibukan saya tentunya di kampus dan warnet. ^_^ Sebelum mengakhiri percakapan yang terbilang cukup lama (30-an menit) itu, dia masih sempat menyinggung tentang arti hidup itu lagi.

Ibarat fruits candy, kehidupan pun juga punya banyak rasa, dan rasa-rasa itu adalah guru terbaik untuk terus hidup dan terus merasakan semua yang ada. Permen jangan hanya dihisap saja namun harus dikunyah kemudian ditelan. Demikian hidup bukan untuk di renungkan  tapi terus di jalani apapun itu. 

Menutup hari ini

Hari ini warnet sepi lebih awal dari hari-hari sebelumnya. Seseorang dari client 12 bernama Ady (pengunjung terakhir) mengakhiri pekerjaan saya hari ini tepat pukul 23:47 WITA. Puji Tuhan, walau berakhir lebih awal dari biasanya, namun pemasukannya benar-benar memuaskan.

 "Thank you God for blessing my life with some truly amazing and beautiful things (college, business, papa, mama, him, friends and especially my bed used by me right now).  I am so very blessed! Give me Your morning with beautiful sunshine and the blast of breath. Let me work again and make me better than today, Amen."

be like a star

 

This posted on my Facebook exactly on a few minute after a man from my past sent this to me via SMS. I'm so glad because finally he comes up again, I only hope that after this he will always be there and never disappear again.

And ya,, I do want to be his meteorite that always glowing and shining like a star, also can always bring luck for everybody who meet me. Just hope you ( him and the reader) too. ^_^

Life Is A Gift

One of my friend sent this one to my e-mail , yesterday.

There was a blind girl who hated herself just because she was blind. She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He was always there for her. She said that if she could only see the world, she would marry her boyfriend.
One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her and then she could see everything, including her boyfriend. Her boyfriend asked her, “now that you can see the world, will you marry me?”
The girl was shocked when she saw that her boyfriend was blind too, and refused to marry him. Her boyfriend walked away in tears, and later wrote a letter to her saying:
“Just take care of my eyes dear.”

                                                                                                                                                                  


Well, i think this is how human brain changes when the status changed. Only few remember what life was before, and who’s always been there even in the most painful situations.
 Life Is A Gift
Today before you think of saying an unkind word–
think of someone who can’t speak.
Before you complain about the taste of your food–
think of someone who has nothing to eat.
Before you complain about your husband or wife–
think of someone who is crying out to God for a companion.
Today before you complain about life–
think of someone who went too early to heaven.
Before you complain about your children–
think of someone who desires children but they’re barren.
Before you argue about your dirty house, someone didn’t clean or sweep–
think of the people who are living in the streets.
Before whining about the distance you drive–
think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet.
And when you are tired and complain about your job–
think of the unemployed, the disabled and those who wished they had your job.
But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another–
remember that not one of us are without sin and we all answer to one maker.
And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down–
put a smile on your face and thank God you’re alive and still around.

Life is a gift – Live it, Enjoy it, Celebrate it, and Fulfill it. ^_^

Ketakutan

Mereka itu hebat, mereka pun bahagia, serta punya orang-orang setia disamping mereka. Tertawa lepas, tanpa menggendong beban (perasaan takut). Well, hidup mereka SEMPURNA.
Dan  SAYA ???
Saya takut akan hari esok, saya sangat takut akan banyak hal, terlebih saya takut perlahan mereka (yang saya cintai) mulai berhenti tersenyum.

About mom @ my facebook on january until march, 2012

January

February

Maret

Read this one not only makes me smile but also it makes me realize how big her love to me en yeahhh,, I do love you too, MOM :*

Ceremony Band (old one)

Here is where i began to join a group band as the Keyboardist. A band named Ceremony Band which established on November 2007. It's a fucking crazy band with the strange members. There were many events we joined and all those were really meaningful for me. All the joy, nervous, happiness, sadness, madness, disappointment, touchiness, concern, friendship, togetherness and many more i got here. I learn many things here also. This band  has 6 members and i really love the five other. They are ..

1st is Jadmiko Gino Permadi (some people call him Miko, other call him Gino and almost people called him Buyung) lol ! He was the Vocalist, the crazy one also. I didn't know why but in every event we followed, he always forgot some lyrics of the song that we perform, but yeah he was the icon of our group because he was really entertain. 

2nd is Alif Abdul Robi Wahyudi (Aliph). He was a great Drummer. 

3rd is Harry Rudiyanto Manukoa (Harry). He has best skill in playing guitar. ya,, He was the Guitarist (lead). 

4th is Jason Christofel Ngun (Jason/Acond). He was the Guitarist (Rhythm).

and the 5th or the last is Heppy Victor Runesi (Heppy). He was the Bassis.

Actually, there are many things about this band I wanna share here, but I have to back home because a lot of things are still waiting for me there. So, finally I just wanna say that I love them, the autism and truly i miss all the memories we ever had.

♥ Love Ceremony Band ♥

someone else

Well,. long time I did not post here.

I'm sorry my dear blog, i didn't forget you, i just too busy with all my activities nowadays,. ahahaha xDD

One thing i wanna share here is about my feeling to someone,. He is the one that colored my life since November 11th, 2011 (11.11.11) until now. He is a kind of wonderful boy for me but everything changes when I opened en read a blog of someone else in his past. it sucks en hurts. Turns out I've been hard to love someone who has someone else who loved him more sincerely than I do.

Happy Djahimo

February 23 via Facebook for Every Phone

Cinta itu seperti coklat, tapi gak berarti cinta selalu manis. . Kan ada juga rasa coklat yang pahit. . ^__^

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  This was a message he sent me on February 23rd, 2012 that turned out was a message also sent by someone else to him. Well, just forget about the text, actually i don't really know how long the girl have that feeling to him, but i know right it more than what i do. 

  The question is "What should i do next?" it's simply. I know I can't forget him, but I'll try to avoid him for a while until this feeling disappeared from my brain and heart. 

  Good bye "R.O"    

everything would be fine

Sesulit apapun masalah yang ku hadapi„ aku selalu mengingat ini ….
“SEMUA AKAN BAIK-BAIK SAJA, PEO”
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